He went in last night. The fluid build up in his lungs again... The dr talked to me for a long time. He says dads med are not working anymore. He said that the fluid is hitting him faster and harder. He told me he doesnt think dad will make it to christmas. He told me to make any arrangments that need to be made. I started calling family ,his sisters and brothers ect. My sisters still hasnt come. He almost died on me . That was the longest wait on a ambulance in my life. He was so helpless gasping for air. I cant do this anymore , This is killing me inside. I couldnt do anything but try to keep him calm. H e was so scared Me and DH split up , right when i needed him the most I made him leave. Why why why ! OMG i just wanna scream. Why did tony have to do this now ! He was visting that cam site again and I looked into it more this time , Its a meet singles in your area site ! He was or has ganna cheat on me . It broke my heart omg im so dying inside, I told him to get out ,and he did . I want my husband now . I need my husband. He was here this morning visitng the kids and I wanted so much to say stay but I didnt I l et him go. I cant do this , Not alone . I need someone to hold me up Or at least help me with my babies. Would I be stupid to call him ? I cant belive they told me he doent have til christmas , I dont wanna loose my daddy . Im not ready for this .

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Oh sweetie. I am so sorry. My prayers, good hopes and wishes are with you and your Dad. I know you are in NC. There are alot of us ladies from NC here. Is there anything we can do?

I know you are needing a shoulder to cry on so naturally you want to reach for your DH. But before you do, try and think things through. If you need him for an evening or two to help you, that is fine. But please don't mix up an evening of support as hope for fixing the marriage. Looking online to meet singles is in no way appropriate for someone who is married. I hope you have some kind of addition support during this time. We are here when you need us.

Again, prayers being sent your way right now.

My heart goes out to you right now. I am so sorry you're going through all this alone. I wish I had some really good advice to give you, but I really don't. Just know you are in my thoughts and prayers. (((hugs)))

OH...your post makes my heart break. I wish I was there with you. I don't know what to tell you....but I do think that you did the right thing with sending your dh away!!! Maybe this will wake HIM up, too...but as much as you need a shoulder, his is NOT the one you need right now. Hold on to those babies...hold on to your daddy...and make every single day count!!

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Shaking in my boots (well, if I was wearing them in the middle of summer!), but glad to be back!

I am so sorry. I wish I had the right words to say, but I'm at a loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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Alicia

Mommy to Aidan 10-21-05 and Rori 7-3-07

This says it all for me. I've lost my parents and I know it's a hard road to go down. I'll be wishing you strength in this difficult time. And as much as you'd like to have someone to lean on, I'm not sure your dh is the right person. I would try to find other friends or family to support you. I agree he could help watch the kids or do some things around the house to help out, but not in the sense of getting back together. Getting back together with a cheating (or wanting to be cheating) man won't erase the pain from your father's illness. Take care.

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Blessed w/ 6 is right. Hold on to every minute w/ your dad and make it all count. Tell him everything that you have ever wanted to tell him. Dont hold anything back! I know this has to be so hard on you. I am so sorry. Just try your best to take it day by day and do the best you can. I am here for you-we are all here for you. ((HUGS))

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SAHM to Elias 3/00, Camdyn 7/03 and Teagan 5/08

I'm crying inside for you right now, I wish I could reach out and give you a big hug. Make every day count with your dad. Hold your babies. I will be thinking about you and your family.

I don't know if this is too personal or not - but what lung disease does your dad have? My mother had COPD for many many years.

Praying for you....

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Vickie in Georgia...

I want you to know that I am here for you when you need it. I just lost my mom a couple of months ago and it is hard. Like Jennifer said, cherish your time with him. If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to pm me. My thoughts are with you. Erica

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