I know I don't post often or respond to many posts but I am in need of some TLC. I am seriously depressed. I'm so sad all the time and cry out of no where throughout the day.

I am going to call my doctor today because I think I am going through post partum (i don't know if I spelled that right).

My life is just so out of wack between my dd who is 11 weeks, the fact that I really haven't had any social interaction like I'm used to since I worked full-time, I live in a two room apartment which is completely filled to the gills. I don't even have an eat in kitchen.

I don't want to go for walks and I am tried of lugging everything to my mother's just to get out of here for a little. She comes over here but that's just adding more to the already completely filled one room that I live in during the day.

My dh works 80 hours a week so no help there.

I don't know maybe I'm spoiled, growing in a house with a backyard. Maybe I'm selfish thinking of how I'm stuck in the house right now. Maybe I'm just having a complete mental break down from not working in so long (since march). I don't know but I am so tried of feeling sad all the time.

I went through post-partum depression, and it sounds like you could certainly be dealing with it...but I'm no doctor! Best of luck to you, and I hope you feel better soon.

I think all of the above are treu, you might have PPD. It is normal, you dont have anything weird. You need to tell you mom and you need to ask for help. You can manage with the baby, but maybe you should leave her with you mom for a couple of hours and get out. You have to force yourself and not let yourslef spiral into more deep PPD.
Maybe go for dinner with DH, or call a friend and go for a drink?
hang in there, it will pass, call you Dr. he might give you something. maybe call c-workers you had and gossip about work and the ex-boss?
Good Luck

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{{{HUGS}}} You always have a shoulder to cry on here.

I'm no dr., but it does sound like you've got PPD. I hope your dr. can prescribe something so you can start feeling better.

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When the sun came up this morning I took the time to watch it rise,
as its beauty struck the darkness from the skies.
I thought how small and unimportant all my troubles seem to be,
and how lucky another day belongs to me. ~ Jerry Reed

Please call the dr. I was where you were at just about 2 months ago. I was so sad, tired, crabby...and my body hurt so much that I just souldn't keep my head straight and felt like I was sinking even though I was only wading in the shallow end.

But it got worse...soon I wasn't only sinking, I was drowning. I know in my heart that if I hadn't called my dr and gotten something that I would havegone down a really dark path. It's super scary to be where you are. And you've had so many changes! A new baby, not sleeping, barely eating and feeling isolated from your friends and society in general. It does sound a lot like PPD to me.

Please call today. I was so scared to use medications but they really helped. They helped so much that I was even able to go off of them last week!

Thinking of you and saying a prayer that it works out for you.

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~Amy


Live like there's no tomorrow
Love like you've never been hurt and
Dance like no one's watching

I haven't really had much post-partum depression with my four, but I know I have had great periods with sadness before and it totally stinks! So I know what your'e feeling, girl, or at least think I do! LOL I so totally understand how having a lot of stuff in a small area is getting to you. Could your Mom or someone else come over and help you clear it out and/or organize it? Maybe if you got your enviroment feeling better for you, that would help a lot. If nothing else, we're here for you to vent to!

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You are not being spoiled!Yes lease call your docter and then in the meantime also try to find somethng you enjoy doing.I'll be thinking of you

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I went through PPD some too especially when breast feeding. I had such a hard time with that. Definitely call your doctor. They can prescribe something to lift your spirits a bit. In the meantime, sending prayers and hugs your way.

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~AMY~

I think you're right to call the dr! My only advice for you is to take a deep breath, get yourself ready for the day, make your bed, and even though you don't feel like gettting out and going for a walk, do it! It is a very hard transition going from working full time, and interacting with people all day, to being at home 24/7 and caring for a little one that needs constant attention. You're not in this alone, and don't think for one second that you can't come here and scream and yell! I'd be totally lost if I didn't have the ladies on here. I love ya girl, you can pm me if ya need to chat some more!
Erin

Definitely sounds like post-partum!! Definitely see your doctor. You're on the right track.. Try to join a mommy's group. Look for one in your area. You need to get out and socialize. Look for inspirational books on the internet -- or go to your library -- better yet -- and read up on inspirational topics, anything that would inspire you. Find a hobby to do, gardening, maybe. Try volunteering somewhere that you can bring your baby. Volunteermatch is a great website. You can put your zip code in and find lots of things out there. Even visiting a nursing home would be great. You get to cheer up lonely people (that makes you feel great) and you can bring your baby. Elderly people love to see babies. Maybe you could help out with their crafts or gift shops. Just getting out and getting invovled will make you feel better. Even if you don't want to, push yourself to do it, and in no time you WILL be feeling better!!!! Good Luck! I hope some of this helps. But definitely get to the doctor