In my next life, I wish I would have a mother or father who cares for and has unconditional love for me, so I wouldn't have to go through my childhood and young adulthood figuring it all out alone. I would like for that parent to not be physically and emotionally abusive, too, and not so completely narcissistic that that s/he is void of empathy and incapable of giving or receiving love. Even as an adult, I'd like to be able to turn to a parent for guidance or support when there is a problem, instead of receiving guilt, blame, harsh words, and a lecture on my imperfections. When I do something amazing, I would like to have a parent who does not belittle what I've done, or try to take credit for it. I would like a parent who does not need constant stroking and praise in order to like me. It wouldn't have to be a great parent, just a usual one with good points and faults like most everyone has. I'm asking for only one decent parent, I won't be greedy and ask for two.

I don't want to trade the life I have now, I am finally loved and happy. But, if I'm born into this world again, with another lifetime, I'd really like to experience the parent love-thing everybody else seems to take for granted. That is my wish.

Do you have a wish, too?

I wish my mom didn't have favoritism. She and my sister would have nice conversations while the only time my mom would talk to me was when she told me what to do or if I did something wrong. I grew up with a lot of resentment towards my sister and mom but now that I am MUCH older, I've kindda gotten over it. Small things still trigger a twinge of 'UGH' towards them but I try not to let it bug me.

I wish my mother would understand that she is a complete lunatic who has a drinking problem. She has given up a wonderful family and life to be a horse trainer with her drunk abusive new husband. Does she realize she has 2 beautiful grandaughters that she will never meet? Does she realize she never got to see her only daughter be married? Does she realize she missed my HS graduation? There are a ton more does she realizes in my life. I know that I am not the mother to my girls as she was to me. She has set an example that I do not want to follow!

Swampwitch, I sympathize with you completely. Mine were not physically abusive, but mentally YES. My mother more than my father....but he needs those strokes you talked about to know he is doing a good job. As you know, that also rubbed off on my sister. There are some days when I don't feel like I have a family at all. I am just all alone. I was just reading the thread "what do you call your mom and dad?" and I wanted to reply....Mom and Dad, when I call them....

I am just learning about all of this, and really taking a hard look at myself, as you know.

I guess my wish would be the same, for someone to love and accept me the way I am from at least one parent....and from birth up to adulthood!!

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“Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why. ~ Eddie Cantor

If wishes were horses, beggars would ride. Sorry...couldn't resist. That nursery rhyme always amused me.

I wish that my Mom had taken better care of her body so that she wouldn't have died when she was only 46. My Mom wasn't a good mom but I know she tried. Her mom was crazy, so there were a lot of elements of my mother's parenting that mirrored how she was parented...lots of screaming, being demeaned and physical abuse. When I was a teenager, our relationship was better and by the time I was an adult, we were close friends. During this time, she also stopped drinking which made her a lot more tolerable.

Yesterday, I saw my Dad. He works for the railroad so he's on the road a lot and when he's home, he's sleeping. He's done this my whole life, so I'm used to it. But yesterday while I was talking to him, I found it really hard not to cry. He is so cold and so closed off to the world. He is thoroughly convinced the world is out to get him. I'm convinced that if I weren't flesh and blood related, he'd have nothing to do with me. I wish I'd had a Dad who was around and when he was around, he was HERE. Thank God my girls will know what it's like to have that kind of dad!

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Ordinary riches can be stolen; real riches cannot. In your soul are infinitely precious things that cannot be taken from you. ~Oscar Wilde

I, too, wish my parents were different but I know I can't change them or the past. However, my own wish is coming true: It was that a be a MUCH better parent to my children and not to damage them as we have been damaged. I don't know if I will succeed totally, because I am far from perfect, but I am trying a lot harder than they did and am much more in touch with my kids, educated in the world and child raising, and my kids have a pretty good life. I can't change my past, but I can change my and my children's future. I was not in control as a child, but I can teach my child to be in control and the responsibilities and positive outcomes it will provide.

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