I haven't been on in awhile because things have been crazy here. I am just feeling so blue today and it is really starting to get to me. I just need to vent. I went back to work on 8.13 and b/c our school was doing construction, there was a ceiling collapse in several classrooms, mine included. I couldn't get into my room to set up until Friday the 17th and school started Monday the 20th. I still had to go into work that week and help everyone else. I ended up working through the weekend before school started and just never started out as organized as I like to. The kids don't realize it, but I do. Meantime, on Monday morning I got my class list. Yep, you heard right. I couldn't even put nametags on desks, etc because I had no names until the kids walked in. Turns out I have 11 out of 18 students who recieve ESE services. I had been designated the "ESE" class for our grade. NO warning or heads-up until the kids walked in the door. I don't mind having these kids, my own son is an ESE student, and I enjoy having them in my class. BUT they do require advance planning. And I felt stupid bc parents assume that teachers know who's gonna be in their class! It made me look unprepared but it was not my fault.

DS1 got his casts off from his big surgery but the place for therapy is dragging their feet getting us an appt. The dr said DS1 can walk, but he screams and throws a fit everytime I try to get him up. He is being such a pain. He refuses to walk or stand at all. Partly, I think he is scared, but part of it is he is stubborn. My back is killing me because he makes himself drop to the ground every time I get him up.

Meantime, i was sick this weekend and DS2 caught it from me. He ran a fever pretty high and ended up with a febrile seizure last night. SO SCARY! I slept about 2 hours on his floor, the rest of the time staying up with him. I am exhausted.

My house is a disaster, I get no help from anyone and it was so clean over the summer. (Clean for us, anyhow.) 2 weeks at work and it's all undone. Plus I owe my mom $300 which I don't have. I am hoping she won't ask for until my next payday, which is making me uneasy and stressed.

UGH. I am sorry to vent but I just am at that breaking point I think all moms go through. I think the big thing is that I just want to be HOME! I love working with kids, but I want to be with me own kids first. Not juggling when someone is sick or being to rushed to keep up the house. Usually I stay focused on the positive, but today I am having a pity party! Thanks for reading.

I'm sorry. Sounds like your year is starting off on the crazy side.

Sometimes i feel like I over re-act when it comes to some things...feeling like there is NOBODY else in the world going through anything. I really have lots of pity parties so on one hand it is good to know other mom's suffer from depression and major stress but I am sorry you are going through all of this. We feel completly alone but just know many of us moms are probably only hangin on by a thread.

I am so sorry your having a rough start to the new school year. i hope things improve for you very soon.

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Have a bootiful Halloween!

I am sorry the year seems to have gotten off on the wrong foot. I hope everything evens out for you soon. Deep Breath....Let it out.....3 day weekend just around the corner....(((BIG HUGS)))

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I am so sorry to hear about all that has happened. I'm sure you are a wonderful teacher. I hope things get better for you soon.

I hear you!! I feel My life as I Know it and WANT it to Be is Falling apart!!



Only Difference is - I would Give anything to have a Career and actually NOT be at Home 24/7 -

My oldest kids Went back to school monday - Thank god ray:

But Its A real joke cause they will be home again this weekend ( FRI- MON) for labor day vacation.

Plus now that they Aren't Here my 3 YO is bored , Miserable and Super Bratty anyway -
NOT the Loving Boy I had last year that I Couldn't Wait to Be alone with.


I am Most likely gonna put him into day care a Couple days a week Soon -

I need to Be Kid free for some days here and there so I Can Get my life back on track - Before I Complete lose it .

This summer was the worst ever -
I am on super SUPER mom burn out

Aren't the Parents aware about the roof collapes etc?? They Should Be informed About the lack of time You were Given

You are Right this IS NOT your fault

Vent away! Hopefully having a 3 day weekend will give you a chance to get more in the groove.

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