It feels like I have been down in th e dumps for months now - I used to be a great housekeeper - I would get up on Sat morning and clean my whole house - and it was therapeutic to me. Now - I am the worst housekeeper ever and I don't know what is wrong with me. I just feel so tired and have no interest at all. I am one who likes to decorate for holidays and do crafting - but here lately, I just can't seem to get motivated to do anything. I think all of this started in Nov 2004 - I lost my mother and five months alter I lost my father, so I son't know if I'm depressed or what. I really feel bad for my kids to have their friends over because the house is such a mess. And to top if all off - we have a new litter of kittens - 2months old now - and I have never liked inside pets - because they seem to have an odor to them. I work at LaGrange College - I love my job - in fact here lately - I had rather be at work than at home. When my father died - he left the house to me and we moved into it. It is an older home and needs quite a bit of work - but it is paid for and I thought maybe we could fix ip up as we go and not have any martgage payments.

I don't know why I posted this ladies - I thought maybe y'all coulf give me some advice and motivation.

thanks so much for listening...

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Vickie in Georgia...

I am so sorry for your losses and how hard it is for you. It is never easy to not have the people we love not be around for us. I think we grieve for our loss and rejoice for them.

It sounds like maybe you might want to talk to your family Dr. and see if he thinks maybe a nice little antidrepressant might help your brain restablize the chemical imbalance that is causing your sadness. It sound like you have all the symptoms of depression and rightfully so.

It will just help you to start feeling like your ol self again and before long you will have a clean house and enjoy being a part of the living.

Please do talk to your dr and let me know if there is anything I can do to help you.

I am so sorry for your losses.

The hardest thing to do is admit that you have depression. It took me about 6mths of gaining weight, constantly being sad, not interested in doing ANYTHING, to admit to my dh that I had a problem. This is not something that will just go away. First things first, talk to your dh. You may be surprised how supportive that he might be. Then, yes, I agree with the previous post, go talk to your Dr about options. If medication is not an answer for you, ask your Dr to recommend someone to talk to, to listen with an unbiased ear.
It has been almost 2 years for me, and I am still struggling with my issues. But having someone to talk to, whoever that might be, definately helps.
Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help, or feel free to PM me if you need an ear.