I was going to post a reply to my thread in Money Matters - the one where I updated my financial life - but this has become so spiritual to me, that I just have to comment here.
I always feel like I should "recap", so here's the short version: We are in a financial crisis. I wasn't handling it well. I wasn't communicating well with dh, and it was causing some problems in our marriage. (Okay, there's more to it than just those points, but that's the recap.)
Early last weekend, I was angry, pouty, and hellbent on feeling sorry for myself and the situation that dh has put us in. Then, a fellow Mommysaver friend told me to pray. What simple, wonderful advice. I prayed to God - handing over my financial problems to Him, and asking Him to help us through it.
I can't tell you what a difference it has made. Since that has happened, some money has come into our lives. (not much, really, but I am learning to be thankful for the blessings that God gives us - no matter how small or big.) It's enough to pay another box of testing strips on our ovulation monitor. They are quite expensive, and I couldn't find a place in our budget to cut that much money.
But the amazing thing is the outreach of people I barely know who are blessing us with seemingly small things that are such a HUGE blessing right now. I'll let them keep their anonymity, because I know that none of them gave for the sake of recognition. It amazes me how many blessings we've received - after giving our financial problems to God.
Please understand that I am ready to work hard on killing our debt and working side-by-side with dh to fix all of our financial problems. I know God will be there to provide for us during this lean time, and I am ready to do whatever it takes. I pray that I will find a second job that will allow us to have extra money to pay towards debt. (I had a terrible attitude toward getting another job, and now I see it as a great opportunity to kill the debt.)
I want to continue to look for the small blessings in my life each day, and I want to get away from the self-pity and woe-is-me garbage that really gets me nowhere. With God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
