Hi Ladies:

Normally I have what I call my "Monthly Freak Out Day" before AF arrives. This month I was so busy that week that I am having my Freak Out Day today (during AF).

My life is really not that bad compared to others around me, but I am feeling the weight of the world on me. I still don't know what is causing the chronic body pain that I have (waiting for my consultation with the rheumatologist on April 29th). Until then I take Vicodin when things get bad (have been taking it at night all week long...yuck!)

Still haven't gotten my results back from my allergy test 2 weeks ago. Still not exactly sure what DD is allergic to (her formal testing will be done on April 28th). Poor DS broke out in eczema all over his body on Wed last week and scratched himself until he bled in several places. We did the initial blood test on him on Thursday and are still waiting for the results. DD just had a major diarrhea blowout all over her crib (I just changed the sheets last night) so that means I probably gave her something to eat today that she is allergic to. It's just driving me nuts not knowing what's going on with my body and what my kids are allergic to. Poor things are suffering, itching, and having diarrhea and I don't know what's causing it!

My best friends MIL is going to start chemotherapy for Non Hodgkins Lymphoma and they did the biopsy this morning to see if it is the aggressive or non agressive type. So my heart is aching for their family.

Another good friends Grandma (I spent many highschool days in her Grandma's pool) has cancer again (she just passed the 5 year mark of remission and then it came back) and it's metastisized all over the place so my heart is breaking for her family.

I just got word from my DH that our renters in our Austin home are like 5 months behind in rent. The wife is out of a job, they have 2 young school aged kids, and are struggling. My heart says to give them grace and let them pay back the rent without late fees, but we already did this once for them last year for a period of 3 months. So my heart feels for them. We are trying to be fair since they have always been honest with us and because they have kids we won't kick them out until after the school year is finished.

And now to top it off....I haven't had a good pizza in 6 months because I am on a gluten free diet. And now that DD is allergic to eggs and possibly a few other things (including wheat), she and I pretty much share the same diet with all of our allergies. So I was REALLY hoping that this pizza place (Zpizza) that serves YUMMY pizza would have a gluten free pizza that DD could eat. I just got an email from the owner that the gluten free crust has eggs in it, which we know for sure DD is allergic to. So I am pretty bummed about that (I know it's a silly thing to be bummed about, but add that to everything else and it just really sucks).

The weather here is all dreary, cold and windy (I know others have REALLY bad weather, but when it's yucky like this here in San Diego, it really affects my mood).

Oh and my 4 yo DS has been a pain in the rear all day (but I still love him ).

Okay, thanks for letting me vent. I feel better. Now I will try to play with my kids and have fun with them.

Thanks,
Sandra

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Vent away!

Awwww.... big hugs to you!!! I hope things get better soon!

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I am sorry vent anytime.

It's nice to get it all out sometimes. I will definately keep you and your little ones in my prayers.

Yikes! That's a lot to go through all at once.

Vent as much as you need to. That's what we're here for.

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Have you tried Pamela's Products? They are gluten free-wheat free(also I think most of her stuff is egg free just check) and have a receipe for pizza crust. Hopefully that put a smile on your face. Feel better and vent away.

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I hope things get better soon.

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You have a lot of different branches consuming you and you deserve to vent! I will say some prayers for you and hope things start to calm down a bit for you.

BTW - good friends of ours, the husband, is 31 and just diagnosed with non-hodgkins lymphoma and given 5-10 years. It is a slowing growing & incurable. I'll send some prayers to your friends MIL -- scary stuff here!