everything and every decision you do or make in life is wrong? And no matter what good you do, or how you try to counteract the wrong it just doesn't matter? I have felt like this for the last 6+ months and again today - another blow Man ~ does this stuff ever stop??
I really don't want to go into a ton of details, but sometimes I think that trading in an old life to chase a dream just isn't worth it. I've become this total downer and I hate it! UGH
I hope this isn't offensive but it sounds like depression. I dealt with it for a long time and it can hit you in many different ways. good luck I hope things get better for you
Kelli, I am sure I have not experienced what you're going through, but let me tell you, for the last month NOTHING has went right for me and my family.
Yes, it does get you down and out, but we must pray that things will get better. I hope it helps for you to know that I will keep you in my prayers.
I know this sounds corney but when ever I feel like that, I look around at all that I have in my life, and realize that I must have done something right!!!
When the boys died, I really felt this way, but then i looked at my daughter, who at the time was sitting outside in a mudhole in her new outfit, and realize how blessed my life really was at the moment.
The Kelli I know, loves life! Otherwise you wouldn't be so optimistic, positive and have this aura about you that draws people in. I met you in person and just wanted to always be around you. your smile lights up a room......I mean that...and you know I do. Your heart is big...and you give and you give and you give.....you are super creative and have an eye for things not a lot of people are gifted with. What I am reading is not Kelli. What I am reading is a bump in the road.
All of us have those times in our lives when things just seem to pile up, spiral downward and seem dark. Especially in the winter months and KNOWING how long your winter has been in MN, I am not surprised you are feeling this way right now. When the weather turns, it seems as though our spirits do too and a large part of that is because we are able to get out and about more....FRESH AIR DOES A BODY GOOD.
I'm sorry you are feeling so down. I know this is just a bump in the road for you. Things will turn around...I know they will. Someone like you who is so positive and so fun to be around isn't just like that because things don't go well for her. You've had a blessed life and you live your life with enthusiasm of what is to come next.......
That is the Kelli I know!
Hang in there girl.....once the snow melts and the girls and you can get out and about and embrace the changing season, your spirits will change too
Our pastor gave a sermon this week about how depressing winter can be. He said the animals have it right because they hibernate all winter. I realize all of your problems don't have to do with winter but it doesn't help. Like Doozer said, I hope things will be better for you when you can get out and enjoy life more.
YES! There are times that I feel completely this way. And it is such a bummer, you're trying hard to do what is right, but no matter which way you turn it seems to be the wrong way.
Do you ever feel like..
Man ~ does this stuff ever stop??
but when ever I feel like that, I look around at all that I have in my life, and realize that I must have done something right!!! 
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