I would highly recommend listening to preachers on the internet when you can't make it to church. I actually listen to Joyce Meyer quite often throughout the week. I think it's very important to spend time reading the bible and in prayer. I have a journal that I write out what I'm thinking to God as my prayer. I have struggled often spiritually and it's then that I really immerse myself in prayer, study, or listening to people preach on the internet. I just heard in one of Joyce Meyer's sermons that you should never give up when you are struggling spiritually, because you may be very close to your break through. I think that you can become much closer to God through the struggle of seeking Him.

I would also recommend that you listen to Christian music. Something about music always helps me focus on God.

I know we butt heads a lot but here is what I think. God lives in you and loves you. If you want to talk to God, look within yourself. He made you and put his love and light in you doing so. Keep praying. Missing church is not going to hurt you. Church is more for the people, imo, but many find serenity in going. Remember that God is always with you. He put a little piece of himself into all of us. I hope you find peace and what you are looking for.

Maybe you should try visiting some other churches, it may just be time for a change. I would also suggest that you spend some extra time alone with God, tell him how you are feeling, and spend some extra time in prayer.