Hi friends,

I know I have taken a brief absence from the board and I am sorry for not posting earlier and staying in touch. I beg forgiveness.

It has been a long month filled with trying to understand others, my life and the reflection of the past year. I have had my trip to Disney fall apart, conflict with the Godparents who pulled the timeshare for Disney, two girls leave the ABA program, the oldest Daughter in recovery and then there is just day to day life.

It is thru faith that all things are possible. I recently found out that the day that the God Sister Emily didn't come to work the program with Hunter, our team leader went to the teacher and complained. Godmother called that nite and said a few harsh words but I didn't think much of it. Turns out the Godparents were very upset that Emily got spoken to by the teacher and that is why they canceled the Disney trip and pulled our lodging. I have rented points from a DVC member and have all but one nite! I have asked one of the summer college girls to come with and after consideration, she has agreed. Hunter and I will be in Disney with help Jan 10-17. Come and say Hi.

Our oldest daughter, 26, was nearly heading to a woman's correctional facility when somehow she pulled a rabbit out of the hat and is now in drug court. She has been spending weekends with us and causes conflict the entire time. We love her very much but it is her actions that have brought her to this point. Yet, I still worry! I have been to AA with her and to her counseling. I am trying to be supportive and yet have so much more to take care of.

Finally, I have been reflecting on the past year. We are one year into our DX, one year since the car accident with the moose and since my head injury from said moose. I still stuggle with the why, which has no answer, I am still angry at God and am looking for resolution.

I am sorry for not posting but with all the problems we have with our SN children I didn't want to be an additional burden.

I have gotten so many PM's asking if I am ok and thank you for your thoughts and prayers! We are such a great group here and it so nice to be thought of. God bless you all.

April

It is so good to hear from you!!! I was worried, but figured you must need time.

I am glad the Disney trip is going to be pulled off!!! I am sure Hunter will have a blast!

I am so sorry about your dd. I can so relate. I have a similar dd. People tell me to just cut her off, but I am still her mom and I still love her dearly even if I do not like her and my life is much easier when she is not around.

You are in my prayers! Hope you have a wonderful Christmas!!! And the new year brings great new things!

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