Gosh, I feel like I could have written what you did! I don't like when people tell me that they know "exactly" what I am feeling, so let me just tell you that I feel like you and I are in very similar situations! My husband and I have been trying since we got married - just 4 months ago. We are somewhat older (31 and 32) so we wanted to start trying right away.
I agree with you that it is hard, and I understand that pain of the letdown every month. Is it hard for you to hear about other people who have conceived so easily, too?
I think it's great to have a support network. I'm here if you need someone to talk to, or vent to! I will keep you in my prayers.

We have been trying for 5yrs for another baby and still nothing, so I know what it is like. We have done the clomid and still nothing. I think in the last 2 weeks I have come to think that we were only meant to have the one. Hubby and I talked about it tonight and we are going to go have him tested one more time and if that doesn't work we will talk about adoption. It is a very hard time and I get sick and tired of everyone telling me it will happen when I relax. I have been relaxed, you would think after five yrs it would happen and it still hasn't. I am at the point that I don't know what to think anymore and just one on with life....

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aka: sara

I know how all of you feel too. DH and I have not prevented conception for five years. We had a miscarriage almost three years ago. I know what you are going through. The ovulation tests, figuring out if your cervical fluid is "right" or not. Calculating the best time to have sex. It's a chore. I have turned it over to God so many times, only to keep getting impatient.

I had the HSG done to make sure I didn't have any blockages and that came out perfect. I could afford to lose some weight though. And my DH had his sperm tested and it came back perfect too. Now I understand that it' s not up to me, and that I should be patient and quit trying so hard and it'll happen when it's supposed to. But that doesn't help with all the negative pg tests...

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and let's hope that all of us get pg soon!!!!

big hugs from KY!!!

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Amanda

We tried for 5 1/2 years, with the exception of fertility treatments, to no avail. We became foster parents to 3 beautiful children and after living with us for 3 months, we found out we were having our own child. Everyone says stop focusing on it, and believe me, it is easier said than done, but I kind of believe that. I said we didn't have time to try with 3 under the age of 3 and then it happened. I hadn't started and I was scared to take a test b/c of the other 3 living w/us. I had sick at my tummy feeling, headaches, and I couldn't brush my teeth w/o gagging. I had also had a cold that wouldn't go away, but I really didn't think I was prego. But I wanted to let you know my story b/c it could happen when you least expect it. Good luck and best wishes!!!!!

Thanks for all of the kind words from everyone it helps hearing that others went through some of the same. I am the first of my closest friends to decide to be a mom, they are all still wanting to prevent getting pg, so it's hard for them to understand, and my two sister in laws both got pg in the last year and it was a "suprise" for both, so even though my husband and I were the first to decide we wanted to be parents we will be the last in his family to become parents, go figure. That and my Dr. just keeps saying everything looks fine and it should happen, anyway sorry needed to vent there a little I guess. Thanks again everyone